Well, WOW! HAven't blogged in such a long time! WOW!

Well me and David are NOT goping out anymore. it's been like 2 months single now. YEah I'm STILL crying over it. CAll me pathetic.. GEESH! Well, Lets get to the point of why I'm bloggin again...

K so. I have this 'friend'. He is a toalt jerk and he even will admit to it.

He treats me like shit and I tell my other friends and they tell me he doesn't mean it and he loves me. HAHA! Funniest thinkg I've heard in my life.

So I don't know if I hate him or if I can just deal with him.

Wow, If he sees this his ego will be thorugh THE ROOF!

That'll be great. One more thing to tease Jen about. Gosh, If he found this blog I would probably kill myself.

I know I just try to take what he says and all, but I do get angry and hit him up a bit. (Like it hurts, I can hurt a fly.) But still, he angers me so much and frankly, I don't wanna be his friend anymore. That would be virtually impossible. He's everywhere and if I wasn't freinds with him. I'd lose like all of my freinds cause he always hangs out with them. Except my few friends who don't hang out with him because they all hate him. Now I understand why! He teases me constantly and yeah I'm not pretty, and I'm over weight but still. Don't rub it in my face. He has no problem with my sister. Just me. And I have no fucking idea why. Not the slightest clue.

A friend of mine wrote a suicide letter. Nice way to change the topic. She told me she almost killed herself the other night. She is the only person who actually understands me and doesn't tlak about me behind my back. Well, she does. BUT In a good way. Her friends are always telling me about all the nice thingks she says about me and It's extremely flattering but, If she would have killed herself. My life would have gone down the drain. FOR GOOD. Like I've dealt with A LOT of crap in my life in the past few years but that, would be the most devastationg thing. I wouldn't even be able to go to her funeral because she doesn't live anywhere near me. She is truely my best friend. Sorry to you people reading this but that;s the truth and sometimes the truth sucks don't it?

Like my sister. UHG! Where should I start on her? Seriously. i love her to bits but I really don't think she's too keen with me.

Anyways, I HAD a very big crush on a friend of mine. It was the first real crush since I broke up with David. (haha BIG MISTAKE!) And my 'friend' goes and tells her boyfriend (David's best friend) and like that is SO SHADY! I finally try ot get over David and she goes and fucking tells him. So now we are only aquaintances. I think.

But seriously. Life is kind of treating me like crap right now. I'm not trying to drag attention to myself because, trust me, that's the last thing I want right now.  I just don't have a lot of people I can really trust. Cause when I explain what's wrong they say 'Wow, i don't know what to say...BUT (Oh, here's the kicker) I'm here for you to help you with everything!' Well, If you don't know what to say HOW THE HELL CAN YOU HELP ME!? If anyone knows how that works please tell me!

So me and David's mom are really great friends and we try to talk and see eachother but It's uber hard. Because I'm usually busy. But I love her to bits and pieces.

But I have to finish straightening my hair, and get off to bed. I'll try to message again soon.

Sincerely,

Me.